Last week I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with TMJ caused most likely from my anxiety. I was frustrated with this because I have been trying to really take control of my anxiety issues. Once again, he started asking me what’s going on and really trying to get to the root of the problem. What became clear to me after that appointment was another big a-ha moment.
I take other people’s problems as seriously as my own.
The people I am around on a daily basis are all individuals I care for immensely. They hurt, I hurt. They are mad at someone, I am mad at someone. The examples can go on and on. They have something wrong I want to fix it.
But how can I fix someone else when I cannot even fix myself?
It is easier to focus on others when you are trying to avoid yourself. I want everyone to be happy.
I need to learn that I can’t always be the rock.
My wonderful husband really tries to help me, and he is the rock that keeps me as put together as I am. He knows as much as I do that I really need to start taking stock in what is important.
I need to learn to let go.
Not being the one to save the day does not mean I do not care about someone. I can listen, give advice if asked, but I don’t need to take ownership of others emotions.
It is easier said than done, but I have to take control. I have to learn to filter and continue to adapt who I am. I need to realize that I have an amazing support system around me filled with people that would do anything for me.
I need to continue to remind myself how blessed I am. That my worries can be silly at times. That not everything is worth getting stressed over. I need to laugh, enjoy and just live in the moment.
I need to stop living for tomorrow when today is not even over yet.